I signed my name on the check with a shaky hand. As I handed the contract and check over I had a split second where I could run out the door and shout "Forget It!". But I didn't. I took a deep breath and handed them over with a "Thank You for your time".
Why the nerves? Why am I scared to rent a space at the local rec center? Here is why:
A few weeks ago I discovered Sue Bryce and her online seminar of women's portraits. This is not the 80's glamour shots that everyone thinks of when they hear the word glamour. This is beautiful, modern, magazine portraits for women. I watched the first of what feels like a million lessons and I was IN. I mean ALL IN! I got so excited! I watched a lesson or two a day. I bought the materials to make a background. I researched V-flats, polyboards, and flat paint. I watched more lessons. I practiced in the mirror how to move hips, how to place hands, how to guide chins. And then it was time...time to actually practice. I agonized over it. It is one thing to think and dream and it is quite another to do and practice especially on real women. So I put out a message to some of my FB friends that I thought could help and right away I got great response. Everyone loved the idea and wanted to pose for me. CRAP! Now it was real. Now I had to step up to the plate. Now I had to perform.
There is a recreation center near my house that has a community room that has HUGE windows, hardwood floors and lots of space to move around. It is perfect. If I could design a studio space it would look like this. So I take the leap and rent it out for 5 hours on a Tuesday to shoot these women. That is when it got real. When I had to hand over my own money with no refund to actually do this, that is when the nerves came. I know that offering this service for women will be a game changer. Giving women a day where they get to dress up and look and feel amazing and have photographs to remind them will change them in various ways.
And it will change my business. This is me, stepping up to the cliff, taking a deep breath and taking that first step.